Category Archives for "Love"
The sun was out in Montreal and the temperature was bearable. It felt like spring. I like spring. Everything starts to thaw, including people's desire to connect. Exciting.
I packed up my recording gear and my free love advice sign and headed up the mountain. The goal was to give free love advice to people at the top of Mont Royal. I had no idea I'd run into so many lonely and single people.
Then I asked people walking by if they needed free love advice.
Most people smiled and kept walking. This is a common reaction. They see the tripod and the camera and they prefer to not get involved. I completely understand, I'm used to it.
People in San Francisco were the same way when I used to record them in my taxicab.
I'm still not used to being in front of the camera, it scares the shit out of me. But I do it anyway. I do things that scare me to find out if they're going to kill me.
They haven't yet so I'll probably continue.
They have all the love they need. At least that's what they tell me as they walk by.
Oh I'm good, thanks! Happily married!
I beg them to tell me their secrets but they walk on smiling smugly to themselves.
They look like they know something the rest of us don't, but I suspect otherwise.
Talking about love makes some people uncomfortable. Easier to say you're all full up than to admit you might be needing a little extra.
Especially the folks that are lonely and single. And I talked to a few yesterday.
Three separate people came up to me and told me they didn't need free love advice because they didn't have any love in their life.
It was sad, and raw, but it was real.
They told me they had some love in their life, just not romantic love.
I asked one woman how long she's been single and she asked me what year it was. Oh, that long.
That's cool, I could relate.
I've been single and lonely a few years now. It wasn't my plan, but that's how it worked out. I've had 3 girlfriends in the past 8 years but none have lasted more than 9 months.
So I've been single for 6 out of the last 8 years.
Hmmmm. Looks like I'm the one who could use free love advice.
Even though I'm single and have been for awhile, today, I'm happy.
No, definitely not.I've been single and lonely more than I care to admit.
I've spent long stretches of time lonely and single. I've wasted a lot of time looking for love and coming up empty handed.
Online dating seemed like the way out of being lonely and single so I threw myself into. Then I quit Tinder in Chattanooga because it was a waste of time and energy.
I turned to pornography because how else was I going to satisfy my urges? Then I quit that too because I was using it to change the way I feel and I didn't like it.
Finding someone to be with wasn't going to solve my sadness and my loneliness. This was an inside job.
I didn't want to be lonely anymore. When I was lonely I was mostly sad. Being single I could handle, but I needed to be happy as well.
Until I could be happy with myself and happy in my daily life as a single person, I didn't stand a chance to meet someone to share my life with.
I love steps and I love lists, here's another for you.
Stop looking for that hundred dollar bill, it's getting in the way of living your life. Stay open to meeting new people, but stop looking for love everywhere you go.
When you meet new people try to find out three interesting things about them. That's it. Connection is the new goal, not finding love.
Life is more fun when it's interesting so do interesting things. Write a list of 10 things you've always wanted to do and do the top three most interesting.
Here's what I did: started doing standup comedy, joined a badminton league, and started making videos on YouTube. The more interesting things you do the richer your life will be.
Exercise everyday, eat well, and get more sleep.
Get moderate exercise on a daily basis. You don't need rest days if you vary your exercises. I either run, lift, and play badminton every day.
Cut out sugar form your diet. It's not a nutrient, your body doesn't need it. My moods have stabilized because I no longer eat sugar.
Get more sleep. I needed to go to bed earlier to get more sleep so I stopped watching TV. I don't miss it.
Spend more time with loved ones. If your family brings you joy, then spend more time with them or call them more often.
Prioritize spending time with people who make you feel good. They won't replace romantic or sexual love but they'll contribute to your long term happiness.
It'll satisfy your need for touch, at least for a little while. Too horny to get a massage? Take a freezing cold shower first, trust me, you won't be horny anymore.
Live in action and stay busy. Work hard, explore new projects, develop a new skill, and find a new hobby.
Staying active will help you become more engaged with the world. It'll also help you feel more fulfilled.
Also, it's hard to feel lonely when you're busy and interacting with the world on a daily basis. The world is a wonderful place to be, engage with it.
This one isn't a step. This is what you should do every waking moment of your life.
Without self love, we're completely incapable of loving anyone else.
Love yourself as hard as you can and do everything in your power to cultivate self love. Other people's love will come and go, but you can have all the self love you want. You're worth it.
Single again, my girlfriend at the time and I had just broken up. It happened on my birthday over fancy pizza in Oakland. Some birthdays you remember, some you forget. I won’t forget this one.
I’m not sure what happened. She wanted to be in love. I loved her, but I wasn’t in love anymore. It was sad. I still love her.
Both my most recent ex girlfriends had dogs.
I’d dog sit occasionally, and loved having them around. There’s nothing quite like a dog greeting you at the door after you get home. It’s nice to always have someone to go on a walk with, and someone to cuddle with at night.
Also, I was lonely, single, and sad.Continue reading
I’ve been there more times than I care to admit.
OK, it’s five. Five times.
Every woman I’ve been in a relationship with (5 so far), I fantasize about our future together. No matter how much I try to stay grounded in reality, when I first meet a new partner, my mind goes to the same place.
But I’m not alone in engaging in Fantasyland talk. Most of the time, my partner joins in. After 1 month of dating my crazy ex, we already had a short list of baby names picked out. We’d have two girls.
We’re not dating anymore, obviously, but if you’re curious, here’s the short list: Scout, Kirby, Lennon, Chase, Ariadne, and Maisy. That’s right, we’d be those kinds of people.
And I’m probably not the only one.
I fucking wish we were taking crazy pills. Then we could all stop and realize that it was just a nightmare.
Go back to bed sweetie everything’s gonna be alright.
But it’s not a crazy, horrible, fucked up nightmare. It’s crazy, horrible, fucked up reality.
Last week I made the decision to write about Love on Mondays. But today I just want to crawl back to bed and forget about it all. Unfortunately shutting it out won’t make it go away. We need to choose love.Continue reading
It’s no secret I want love
After all I didn’t move to Montreal for the bagels. I came here for love. And the cheap rent. And the bagels. I really love these bagels.
I’ve been single a few years now. I was supposed to be married with two kids by the age of thirty. Things don’t always work out the way you’d planned them, do they?Continue reading
Thinking about cheating on your partner? There are other options, you know.
You could avoid a world of pain for everyone involved by doing these four things, instead of cheating on your partner. Trust me, It'll be better for everyone...
I was completely pathetic after the breakup. Still pinning for her. She wanted nothing to do with me. “Don’t contact me for 6 months” she said.
I flew to Europe to get away. Spending time abroad would make things better. It didn’t. I was hopelessly lovesick. Co-dependant. I couldn’t enjoy my time. I didn’t sleep well. “We’re gonna get back together” I thought. Continue reading
You know you’ve been wanting to so here’s your chance. I’m giving you the go ahead to break up with your partner. Do it!Continue reading
I didn’t drag the sign all the way from San Francisco to Japan to not use it. After a week of making excuses for not putting it up I set out determined to give free love advice to Japanese people, or whoever happened to walk by.Continue reading